Living Zen Life

"To study the Buddha Way is to study the self. 
To study the self is to forget the self. 
To forget the self is to be verified by all things."
Eihei Dogen - Genjo Koan 

My time away is study of self.
More than seven years
since Carol diagnosed with cancer.
Four years in treatment
her death.

Nine months until I left Portland. 
Seattle - one, two, three, four "homes."
This, the brief version of my storm
only now beginning to calm.
More than seven years.
In calm my study of self begins.

I thought, a month,
I'll need at least a month.
Two months and counting
beginning to grasp 
I need and want more time
how much I do not know.
How long does the study of self take?
It never ends.

My time of self study is zazen.
The wall I gaze at is inside.
I have been "the wall" all along.