Living Zen Life

Naming recent patterns 
disturbing trends:

     *Sold my Portland  home, moved back to Seattle 
     *Dropped out of my men's group 
     *Left my Zen sangha
     *Selling my home to move again

What does it all mean?

I am comfortable leaving
what I do not want.
What do I want?
What will make me happy
give me lasting peace?

Good questions.

I don't know the answers.

It is easy enough for me to say
why I have left all of the above.
I have my reasons
perhaps none others would understand.

I'm dodging the real question.
What do I want?
What am I searching for?

I want to find home.
It is not a matter of four walls
It is many things all together.
Finding one piece is easy enough
finding the whole thing
well, that's another thing all together.